Question Meme!

[twilight_boy]

Well, nobody's at an appropriately round number of comments, but I want to do a question meme and hey, lots of major things have happened recently. Like that one game last night...

Have at! This goes for Roxas and Madoka.

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[twilight_boy]

I think that's where I commented. Link.

Can I just say 'all of it'? There's a lot of different things going on with a lot of different people, and they all give him feels, which is weird, but also good. I kind of love every time he and Ginger thread, because they have this great snarky energy, and he is so, so protective of her. And him and Saix, gah, so much unresolved *stuff* kind of building, from their antagonism in canon, which neither of them know all of yet.

Reverse for Mau?

[doesnothappen]

\o/

Oh god, VAN GRANTS. I already wrote a crazy long essay on that, I think in one of Ven's question memes somewhere, but it has developed since.

I guess the moral of the story is that it's this bizarre backwards relationship in which Mau feels like he's parenting Selenia and is really uncomfortable with it but at the same time has latched onto him with silly amounts of love and determination. It's nice because there are some parts of the relationship that he is crystal clear on and some that conflict him deeply and yes. IT'S COMPLEX idek.

What is Emerald's decision-making process behind how they Emerald through trauma games?

[orange_sun]

H-he pretty much does, yeah. (And Josh would suggest Firebird for temporary freedom purposes.)

Yeah, but not since Josh showed up; they had a big breakdown during one of Three's when Mitchell basically did what Ratatosk did in the last one, and then they talked out their feelings and hammered out a compromise solution. Except now half that team is gone -- maybe more than that, even -- is gone, so...

What would Emerald do if they couldn't self-sacrifice?

[deadofknight]

Roxas finding out makes Ace SUPER WORRIED because information control is really important as part of how he keeps up the front of being a Good Knight, No Really -- especially in the wake of having attacked the book while Darkness'd. So he is really...not sure how to deal with the fact that whoops the whole being trained to kill thing is now out in the open, relatively speaking, and he doesn't know Roxas well enough to gauge how likely he is to spread that info around. :|bbb There was a moment there of pure panic where he wanted Roxas dead, just to try and...fix things... But Roxas not having a negative reaction at Ace about his memory is...weird to him. He'll probably try to poke Roxas once things have calmed down a little, just to...keep tabs on this new information leak. But mostly he is just...very unsure what is happening, and what is going to happen.

As for Zero! Ace intended for Zero to never find out the true contents of that memory. And...on one hand he is incredibly panicked again because of information leaking but also because he fears being rejected by Zero for being a remorseless killer... But Zero doesn't seem upset about that which is upsetting to Ace because now he doesn't really...get...why Zero is upset about the memory? Yet, he clearly is, and is clearly upset about the content of it but...not in the way Ace expected...it's sort of building on something that's happened previously but basically Ace's BLIND PANIC has been hijacked by a deep confusion as to...what Zero is upset about and how to deal with it. It seems like his memories make Zero sad in a way he had never anticipated they would and so there is a lot of anxiety there.

In both cases now that the memory is open he is trying to get over the PURE PANIC of things getting out of his control and trying to figure out how to run damage control on...everything...while dealing with a lot of other anxieties the accidental snooping has brought to the forefront. It is just an incredibly tense and anxious situation for him and he's going to be kicking himself over not destroying the memory sooner when he realized it was infinitely sharable.

How is Roxas taking Ven's death?

[twilight_boy]

It would occur to Madoka, and then, she'd think it through and realize it meant hurting Coral, so there's no win, no win ever. If other Corals wanted it, the way Emerald does, she'd go with that, but she'd never suggest it. Really, she has no 'better solution' for this type of game. She can't get any distance at all, just panic. Which she tries to sit on, as best she can.

What she wants is to protect *everyone,* which means looking for trick solutions, but she's not together enough or bossy enough to push through even her own self-sacrifice, let alone other people's.

Is this the first time Kit's been in a game/situation where people died, in Aather?

[twilight_boy]

"We're not going to let some asshole Persona make murderers out of us." Basically. Personal choice is a major Emerald thing, and a lot of emphasis is placed on 'we can choose to attack ourselves; other teams can't choose/consent to be attacked by us.'

Also ribbons.

How's Ned been settling in? He's yours, right?

[twilight_boy]

Yeah, she sounds like a good idea. Plus I can find her player easily in chan.

I don't even know. Probably try to spread out and cancel as much of the damage as possible. And communicate to other teams that they can/should still target Emerald.

Are there any members of TE Josh is totally chill with, right now?

[twilight_boy]

Badly. He's pretty much stuck on 'it's all my fault.' Which it kind of was, and kind of wasn't. And also stuck on 'what now?!' Because he's *such* an Emerald. And when he's having strong emotions, he can't really control or put them aside and *think,* so he's on kind of a try to cope and fail shutdown.

Is this how you were hoping that memory would come out?

[oceansflower]

VRISKA IS ROCKY AND COMPLICATED, but I think they've recently just settled on a broship. :|a They've hit a point where they're ... okay with each other, I guess. I mean Tavros isn't okay with being told Vriska was the one that paralyzed him but he's ... giving Vriska a chance after hearing about how much she wants to change.

Rose is okay! He has no reason to not be her friend and she was actually the first person he remembered even if she came a lot later. Their relationship is good but not very complicated.

He is a stupid teenage boy when paired with Dave though because when he's with Dave he really shows his age in ways that don't really happen otherwise. They are silly and get mad at each other but none of it is serious and it doesn't last too long, and they don't hesitate to try to support each other in their own ways either. TOTAL BROSHIP.

How about Madoka? What are her castmate relationships like?

[seldomseen]

do u liek me anemone

[orange_sun]

Toboe! Naoto to an extent. Everyone else has feelings of some kind attached, even though he loves them.

Any Persona app plans? I feel like I've asked this before.

[twilight_boy]

Y! I liek u lots! You are snuggly and made of love, and I am protective of you!

Reverse?

[twilight_boy]

Awwwwww!

Homura is just... all dem feelings. So many feelings of trust and confusion, and also love, and also awkward teenager.

Sayaka is... she's Madoka's best friend and canon, and they've settled into an easy trust here in Aather, too. She's worried about her because she was in danger in canon, but she's also a steady spot for Madoka right now. ...Yes, I realize why this is terrible.

Kyouko is... I don't know you very well, and you're a troll, but you're still *mine*, dammit. Their last conversation kind of cinched this.

What are Tavros's current Ruby feels?

[twilight_boy]

Nope! But I will be collaborating on a game with Odile. :) Once we can all get our dates lined up.

How about you, in this particular round?

[blackjacked]

Not exactly! He was around for Beauty's mass suicide game back in October, though that entire game had a different feel to him because it was self-sacrifice, not attacking other teams. This was the first game he played in where teams had to attack other teams, and where teams were (somewhat, barring those who self-sacrificed) responsible for each other's deaths/injuries. He managed to make the decision a lot more calmly than I expected, though if this game had occurred earlier in his Aather arc, it would have gone a looooot differently for Coral sob.

Kit has also died once in a heart game due to a series of bad decisions, and other teams have died around him during games as well, so... he was a bit used to seeing death by the time this game ended. The whole "teams attack other teams" was the spin on this game that made it extra awful. That, and an entire four teams died, which is a huge number even with teams dying in other games.

How do you think Madoka would react to her dying/Coral dying for the first time? /ASKS TERRIBLE QUESTIONS

[twilight_boy]

Her dying... it would hurt, and be upsetting, and she'd break down for a bit, but she'd ultimately be more okay than not. Waking up to other Corals dead/dying/reviving? Yeah, that's a full on BSOD quite possibly. Unless they needed her, or there was something she could do.

(Are you canon-literate for Madoka?) There's one scene where a witch is trying to brainwash a whole bunch of people into a mass suicide, and Madoka starts just *acting* as much as she can, though she's a civ. She only falls apart *after* she's done everything she could to stop it and gets cornered.

But yeah, unless she feels needed, Coral death = BSOD.

I just heard about you dropping Mitsuru, on Plurk. :( Are you planning on re-apping her, or apping another character when apps open again?

[blackjacked]

I am canon literate for Madoka! Such a good series.

For now, the plan is to reapp her in June when the window opens, but if I'm feeling another character when that happens I may push back her reapp until the fall when the window opens again :|a But she will definitely be reapped! I just need a quick break before I pick her up again.

Do you plan on reapping Shion? :O?

[twilight_boy]

I... may under some conditions? I miss her Aather CR a lot, and I miss Sapphire specifically a lot. But I also cornered myself with her, where she felt like she had no reason to take her memories. She's a dissociative, avoidant mess, and her memories weren't really making her care about much back home aside from KOS-MOS and maybe Kevin. Whereas in Aather, she had a team she was genuinely attaching to hardcore, and she was attaching to *Aather* hardcore. Moreover, her memories tend to be pretty traumatic, so without immediate payoff... So why take anything that's not a skill ever again, right? She's got a better life here.

So basically, I think I'd want a canonmate if I was going to reapp her, particularly one who'd kick her into taking her FDGHJKGF memories. Otherwise, she'll happily stay with an incomplete picture forever. See also: dissociative and avoidant.

Have I asked you about your Persona app yet? My brain is mush.

[scalesfromeyes]

oh gosh I have no brain for questions but I am sitting here going :3c :3c

M-madoka's trauma game development is running a bit on parallel lines to Ginshu's with the Coral vs. self-sacrifice thing 8D

[twilight_boy]

*hugs Ginshu forever*

[blackjacked]

I apped a Persona who would let me be a terrible person basically :'Da It's Pandora, from the famous Pandora's Box myth, and she'll essentially be a pure trauma Persona who only runs terribad games if she gets accepted '-' It'll fall in line with the fact that she was the one who released suffering/tragedy into the world via opening Pandora's Box, and she'll favor those who tend to remain hopeful in tragic situations :U

I remember you talking about running a potential trauma game a while back on plurk! Is it a secret or can you tell me a little bit about it? :O?

[twilight_boy]

Oooh, this Persona sounds fun! ...For the players.

Well, it got inspired by the phrase "deadly popularity contest" It'll be all about placing protection points on people you care about. No attack points, but if you don't protect people enough, well, guess they're just screwed. Oh, and the cost for protecting knights is double. This will actually be a pretty wysiwyg game.

Do you have specific games in mind for Pandora yet? If they're not secret.

[scalesfromeyes]

Nooo, I think Madoka's the one who needs the hugs-- Ginshu managed to circumvent some of the uselessness issues just by virtue of being one of the members from the very beginning and thus having something to push back against people trying to protect her in the beginning. But it's really fascinating how characters with self-sacrificial tendencies in Coral tend to react along similar lines. ♥

[twilight_boy]

It'll be interesting to see how things progress, definitely.

[blackjacked]

I have one! And since it's super straightforward, it's not really a spoiler to talk about it, so. Essentially I'd like to run human Battleship with her sometime, similar to Mother's human chess game only with Battleship. And being 'sunk' for characters essentially means unpleasant consequences, i.e. injuries and potential death. The mechanics are still a little fuzzy but I'm still working through them, and I think it could be a fun game '-'a Though I'd have to run it at a time when things are slow and not trauma-ful as they have been lately to space out the impact the game might have on characters :x I'd have to space out a lot of Pandora's games if she's accepted, just to make sure we don't suddenly have a TON OF TRAUMA GAMES all at once since pacing is important :Da;

Do you have any specific plans for your two within the upcoming months?