Okay, summarizing and updating my plurkramble, he is...not doing well. His foundation -- that TE will be stable, will get through games without breaking each other, and will always be able to compromise into a solution -- got seriously rocked, because Sieh was basically like "I don't want to compromise at all" and Naoto was having every feeling. Their knights flipped the fuck out despite being as much voice as any other teammate (and Dave Strider was a huge dick about everything). He basically tried to take charge and push a solution that would give everyone an approximately equal voice, but that only kind of worked and there were still a lot of feelings.
The thing about Josh is that, while he's hard to traumatize into inaction, if he's uncertain he has a high likelyhood of dealing with it by getting angry. And in this situation, that happened. But he rationally knew -- and TE has ingrained enough control into him that it mattered -- that it wouldn't be fair to take that out on anyone. So he just kind of...shoved it down during the game -- snarked at Dave a little, but that's all.
Then! He came out of the game and saw that Roxas, Ven and Mau were all dead! Three of his absolute favorite people. Which did wonders for his sanity, let me tell you. He basically hurled himself into Doing Things so he didn't have any time to think -- he comforted Ven and Roxas, he recharged healers, he made an explosion date with Mithos. Because otherwise he would be stuck with that rapidly mounting rage and just...basically have been waiting for a trigger. (And, y'know, because Roxas and Ven are his bro and boyfriend respectively and he feels like it's his responsibility to help where he can.)
He bled some of that off by cuddling on the beach with Ven and some of it by flopping with Mithos, but he's still just...sitting on this huge ball of Feelings with no target. (God help anyone who agresses at him in the next while, honestly.) So of course he comes home to find Ferris beating the shit out of Naoto, nominally training her, but from his perspective it looks like beating her up because of Feelings and because she disagreed with her. Which is Not Okay, and brought all his team worries back to the forefront, because that is not how family treats each other. At that point he just kind of blankscreened and was like "fuck this, I quit today", and so far that's all that's been played out.
So yeah, BASICALLY HE IS A MESS of anger and team worry and quietly afraid that they won't be able to act honorably in games anymore and still be united. Which...Josh is basically holding tightly to both his team unity feelings and his ethical feelings, and basically might be forced to pick one, which will suck. And also his boyfriend is now at double the risk of death in any given death game, which also sucks.
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Okay, summarizing and updating my plurkramble, he is...not doing well. His foundation -- that TE will be stable, will get through games without breaking each other, and will always be able to compromise into a solution -- got seriously rocked, because Sieh was basically like "I don't want to compromise at all" and Naoto was having every feeling. Their knights flipped the fuck out despite being as much voice as any other teammate (and Dave Strider was a huge dick about everything). He basically tried to take charge and push a solution that would give everyone an approximately equal voice, but that only kind of worked and there were still a lot of feelings.
The thing about Josh is that, while he's hard to traumatize into inaction, if he's uncertain he has a high likelyhood of dealing with it by getting angry. And in this situation, that happened. But he rationally knew -- and TE has ingrained enough control into him that it mattered -- that it wouldn't be fair to take that out on anyone. So he just kind of...shoved it down during the game -- snarked at Dave a little, but that's all.
Then! He came out of the game and saw that Roxas, Ven and Mau were all dead! Three of his absolute favorite people. Which did wonders for his sanity, let me tell you. He basically hurled himself into Doing Things so he didn't have any time to think -- he comforted Ven and Roxas, he recharged healers, he made an explosion date with Mithos. Because otherwise he would be stuck with that rapidly mounting rage and just...basically have been waiting for a trigger. (And, y'know, because Roxas and Ven are his bro and boyfriend respectively and he feels like it's his responsibility to help where he can.)
He bled some of that off by cuddling on the beach with Ven and some of it by flopping with Mithos, but he's still just...sitting on this huge ball of Feelings with no target. (God help anyone who agresses at him in the next while, honestly.) So of course he comes home to find Ferris beating the shit out of Naoto, nominally training her, but from his perspective it looks like beating her up because of Feelings and because she disagreed with her. Which is Not Okay, and brought all his team worries back to the forefront, because that is not how family treats each other. At that point he just kind of blankscreened and was like "fuck this, I quit today", and so far that's all that's been played out.
So yeah, BASICALLY HE IS A MESS of anger and team worry and quietly afraid that they won't be able to act honorably in games anymore and still be united. Which...Josh is basically holding tightly to both his team unity feelings and his ethical feelings, and basically might be forced to pick one, which will suck. And also his boyfriend is now at double the risk of death in any given death game, which also sucks.
Any additional aftermath thought for Roxas?